Be real.
Cluttering the mind and heart with all of that...
and never wanting to deal with >this<
You.
What do you want...?
Where are you going...?
What makes your heart pump and your body shake...
from the inside out?
To truly free fall, means to give in...to you.
articulate yourself..
expression..intimacy..Love.
Give in.
Give out.
Free fall.................................

I saw him today...riding by in his car. I didn't realize how much I still hurt till I started to tear up. It’s been about a year. I miss him, and I will always love him. I can't help but want to reach out and be there, but it would do me more harm than good. I don't want to fill that place in me that burns, with someone or something else. I want to be ok, with me. Just me. Right now. It is not an ache that lasts, but a moment that pops up with the nearness of a memory, dream, or glimpse.
It isn't a help that I'm tired and very hungry, and an emotional woman at times...
I'm ok. And for the most part very very happy.
When I'm hurt in this way, I go past my bubble, through the fog and over the ocean... to a place where people are suffering... and remember how I have so much to live for and give back... My place is not with him...but my heart will always remember, love, forgive, and move forward.
I hope every one of you is having a day to live for...
Much love to you,
A.M.

I encourage you to find happiness in a place you haven't considered before. Create a new experience for yourself and acquire new inspirations. Be open to the idea that now, can be your choice. I'm sure that you are worth it...to someone you will be a moment needed. Find your moment.
There is too much to be sad about...as there is just as much, if not more, happiness to be found and shared.
Alisia


"Sometimes we take quite a journey-physically
or mentally or emotionally-when the very love
and happiness we want so much can be found by
just sitting down. We spend our lives searching
for something we think we don’t have, something
that will make us happy. But the key to our deepest
happiness lies in changing our vision of where to
seek it. " Salzberg

between today and tomorrow...